The Star

My dad is the star

I look up to at night.

Was scowled in a bar,

But I saw the light.

06` was a pacer,

Placed deep in his heart.

Beer was the racer.

The light has now start.

My dad is a sinner,

Would not go to church.

Financially no winner,

But there was a torch.

One night my dad told me,

“Look up towards Mars.”

And there I could see

Big Dipper and stars.

My dad is a bear,

Strong and yet huggable.

Dying’s a fear,

But he’s indescribable.

My dad is a drinker.

So my mom would yell.

Their marriage a sinker,

I could already tell.

But I held my faith,

And prayed every night.

So far they’re so great,

I am a star light.

Reality

Reality.
It's something we all have to think about.
Who am I?
What do I believe in?
All questions we must ask ourselves.

Reality.
You've been told about death but don't believe it.
Is it true?
Are you gone?
It seems as if you are still here.

Reality.
You jumped out of a window.
Why did you do it?
I'm sorry.
I didn't know you were feeling so hurt.

Reality.
It was five in the morning.
Did she call the police?
Did you talk to God?
I hope you're in the right place right now.

Reality.
God will always be there for you.
Did you lose faith?

Did you follow Satan?
I hope with all my heart you didn't.

Reality.
We are all hurting inside.
Would we miss you?
We surely do now.
And we all wish you were here.

RIP Joel, my beloved cousin.

Footprints in the Sand

I like going to the beach with the family, but sometimes I just feel like going alone. Watching twilight sweep over the horizon as the sun sets and walking along the shoreline has a strong feeling behind it. Looking back at the footprints left in the sand made me feel lucky. People say that if you see footprints in the sand then that means God walked with you through your tough times. Sure, I made these footprints, but it still had the same feeling. Nothing could be worse than being heartbroken by mistake. It takes weeks and even months to recover. But once you realize you have God with you always, things tend to change for the better. Footprints in the sand; God will always walk with you. The next person to walk by the shoreline after me and see these footprints would surely be blessed. A blessing flows from one person to another once it’s spread the correct way.
Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

REALIZATION

Almost everything here is about love o_o
You know what?
I'm writing about nature next.

We Were So in Love..

Everyday, I remember
Each memory we shared.
The smiles, the laughter.
The pain & the tears.
Our very first kiss,
was all tears of joy.
We were so in love,
But that's all down the drain.

When we were alone,
it was laughter & kisses
When we were with friends,
It was all fun & secrets.
Devastation, pain,
You helped through it all.
We were so in love,
But that's all down the drain.

I swear, I think,
You had fallen apart.
Once you had asked me,
"Alone to church, huh?"
Everyday, I hoped,
I wasn't mistaken.
We were so in love,
But that's all down the drain.

Really? Are you serious?
It was only you,
So what? I'm religious,
I love God too.
We would of talked it out,
But no chance was given.
We were so in love,
But that's all down the drain.

Now when we talk,
I can see it in your eyes,
You're so very sorry,
But now it's too late.
How do I know,
You won't leave the next day?
We were so in love,
But that's all down the drain.

It's you that I miss,
But I don't want you back.
I love you still,
But I try to forget.
A month has passed,
Since you first let go.
We were so in love,
And now it's all down the drain.

Dear Child, (Draft)

Close your eyes, child, and take a deep breath.

 Breathe out hurt and breathe in faith.

God is near and he can hear,

Let it out, but don't shed a tear.

The first’s truly the worst but you’ll survive.

A learning experience is all there is to it.

Anger can be discussed,

It could change to agreement.

Say goodbye, and hello again,

Soon you’ll realize there is no end.

Move on, you’ve got more to life,

He isn’t worth your precious self.

You may say “this is not the end.”

But believe me, child, end is near.

Promise me, you will let go,

Too much hurt is unbearable.

I once was like you,

Fallen then shattered,

But God had helped me,

I picked up faith again.

So listen to my words,

 And pray every night,

Hold on to happiness,

Save sadness for death.

There’s a light when you see darkness.

There’s healingfFrom heartbreak;

A great hope in devastation,

It’s God’s Love that’ll heal your pain.

And I Wonder

This is the story of true love
Even though he doesn't feel the same way
Story of my love,
and if only if he feels my pain.

These memories are haunting me
Can't stop myself from loving you.
Are you glad that we are finally though?
And all the times that we have held each other..
Now I wonder..

(Chorus)
Are you home alone?
'Cause I really wanna know.
Are you ever coming back to me?
I know you don't understand, but
I can take you hand,
And we can go anywhere you please.

I know you don't have trust in me,
But I have held my trust in you.
I know you don't believe in we (anymore)
But all I really need is you,
You're driving me crazy.

Listen to what I have to say,
You have really got to know,
That I have held my faith in you,
and all You did was let me go,
and I wonder..

(Chorus)

Are you home alone?

'Cause I really wanna know.

Are you ever coming back to me?

I know you don't understand, but

I can take you hand,

And we can go anywhere you please.

(Bridge) >Played as vocal behind third chorus<

Are you home alone?

I've really got to know,

Are you coming back to me?

This is the story of true love,

Even though he doesn't feel the same way.

Our Love (Unfinished)

Our love's like sunflower seeds
We grow & grow (we're everlasting)
Our love's like moonlight on some
shining snow (it's beautiful)
Our love is way more
than I ever have imagined
But you make me see it all through our love.

You're all that I see
You're all that I breathe
& I keep thinking that
we were meant to be.
And if you can't see,
then listen to me.

You're the start of my day
But there's no end.
You're my soul mate
and you're my best friend.

It's out love that keeps us together.
We'll be together now till forever.
You know that I need you and you need me,
But if you think that it's too late to see..
Then there isn't much for me to do.
Except to try and prove to you
That's it's everything we do that hides the truth.

God is There

Her boyfriend,

he never showed

Up to her door anymore

They used to sneak out late

Dark cold hours, daddy wasn't home.

Her mother, far away, gone.

Her father came home at dawn

By then she left the house,

Ready to be picked on at school

(bridge)

She hid her face

Wanted to hide

But she couldn't

She thought she'd die 

That's when he came up, and said hold on. God is there so hold on to faith..

(chorus)

He'll be there,

Don't let go,

Your faith is all that you have to find,

It's enough

To survive

Even when there's no place to go.

(bridge + chorus over again)

Someone told me, "if you never feel at home, you should sit down, pray and free your mind to roam. God is always there, he'd even in your heart; you can talk to him, he'd listen," and she said:

because he came up,

and said hold on,

God has been with me all the time

He is there

Won't let go,

Faith was all that I had to find.

Was enough

To survive

I have found somewhere that I had to go.

I hid my face

Wanted to hide

But I couldn't

I thought I'd die

God is there for me all the time, (2x